This week felt hopeful. I’m not as exhausted at the end of it, as I was the past two weeks.
This week I gave myself permission to take Thursday and Friday off from work. Yesterday I spent the day riding my bike with a friend. I spent most of today hanging-out with my 2.5 year old son.
Both days felt restorative and somewhat exhausting. The exhaustion felt healthy and fulfilling.
I started reflecting on permission at the start of yesterday’s 55 mile bike ride. On one hand, I don’t have to ask anyone like a boss for permission to take the day off. I more or less am my own boss.
This feels liberating. I feel grateful for the freedom and flexibility being my own boss allows.
At the same time, I’m kind of a tough boss on myself. Giving myself permission to let go and not push on work can be challenging.
I’m working on being a kinder boss to myself. It’s a work in progress.
For now, I am trying to focus on feeling grateful for the freedom and flexibility this brings to my life. For most of my career it wasn’t like this. Most of my career meant working for a boss, doing work I didn’t want to do, waiting for the clock to expire.
Phew. It feels hopeful to not be there any longer!
How about you? Who do you need permission from to feel free?